Up Here In My Heart..

So I felt something..
Did you feel it too...?
Up here in my heart..
Every knot untied


Now love flows..and fills the air around me and you...
Somebody robbed the stars from the skies
And lit up the street of my dreams
Every worry swore to die
Every smile came alive...


Oh YES..
This feels right..
After stumbling several times
Finally I found a hand to hold
A one with whom I can be myself..


Fairy tales are magical..
But reality just got ten times more beautiful...
I seek no more shelter
For I am the heart of someone's life now..


Chased for a long time by wonder...I am done with all that
I walk this road now...with every wish fulfilled ..and beating within the name...engraved in my heart..
So I felt something....
Did you feel it too ??? :)

No She Wasn't Waiting!

she sat there broken
no she wasn't waiting
still and lifeless
as though she was listening to agony tell a tale
her beautiful face
gazed at a picture
wishing it could speak
wishing she could cry..
wishing she could hear his voice reach her heart ..
that silver frame ..had more than a picture in it..
the only face that loved her..more than anyone else had..
his eyes grey and deep
the charming smile that is hard to fade away..
the way he held her then..will he ever again someday?
no she wasnt waiting
her heart heard a whisper
but the tear refused to roll
as he gently came as the wind
kissing her face
the room never lost his fragrance
the lights never went off
though the days and nights had lost a count by now...
a ribbon like light shown upon her chair..
as she sat by the window..her hands on the keys..
she sung to him everynight now...
a song she had wished to sing when he was around..
but time made a cruel choice
before he met her that day..before he could hear her soul touching voice...
no she wasnt waiting...
memories from beautiful to bitter
a world torn apart
now she never falls asleep
was she sad?...was she wondering?
or was she too numb to feel all the pain?
will these million pieces of her heart fix themselves again?
could these wounds ever heal?
hundreds to stars asked each other every night...
they grew in number
each day..
just to tell her love..he will find her love once again someday...
no she wasnt waiting....!!!

The Rains...

I remember the first time I saw your face..
Sweat running down…and those big brown eyes…that lent me a smile that day..
It rained..
And way you looked out of the window…
And held those rain drops in your hand..
I watched like a bashful kid
Hiding..smiling…wishing to freeze that moment
I remember the first time we spoke…
And I couldn’t find the words..
But you spoke first and made it easy for me…
I remember all those times I would wait until you left..
Wait for you to turn around and look at me…
Even after you had said good-bye..
Cus I wished to see that smile that meant everything in the world to me..
And all of that has me waiting till today..holding on to the words- it’s meant to be…
But today.. it rained again…just like the very first day..
And an hour feels like a millennium
A thought feels like a lifetime..
These memories are overwhelming
I am lost …waiting for your brown eyes to find me..
So that this stranger’s heart can once again ..begin to see..
A world that is beautiful moment after moment..
A world that means something to her..
But for now she lives…hoping the rains will once again.. bring us together! 

 (in the memory of 3rd july 2005...11.37 am...sunday) 

The Unknown World

There is a world

Where I use to live

Once upon a time

When all things seemed all mine

Beautiful thoughts were permanent

And life to heart’s content

But now I dwell

In a mask of the universe unknown

The shadows of dark overlay

There are no rains and storms

The winds just groan and thunder speaks rude

The apathy is spread all around

The smiles lie dormant

Piles of worry lying around in every corner

The web of sadness seems to be growing each day

All the flowers in the garden have withered away

Snow is as good as dust just resting by the window

And sunshine hasn’t visited since long

The mirror of my eyes reflect nothing but colorless tears

My heart has forgotten to be like itself

Agony soaks my soul

No friends no foes

No faces to remember

Just a me

A me all around

Dreams have forgotten to whisper

And unhappy stories I read aloud

Those  cheerless poems

I sit by the slate grey stone

Beneath a leafless tree

Just looking away to nowhere

Footprints of hope slowly disappear

I see my fear groom and come say ‘hello’

I want to run

But the feet don’t wake up

I want to talk

But the river of words has dried up

I want to call the angels

But I am too scared

God I wonder..is doing what now

I don’t want him to come and rescue me

For the world outside needs him much more than I

His mercies, his generosity must first dawn upon them

I’ll wait for this huge tide to turn and ebb

I’ll wait for thorns to show me the way to the rose

A one that can grow anywhere

Blossom and glow

I’ll wait for time to complete my story.